by Vanessa Wohl
Yesterday I had an amazing time in the presence of the Lord. I found myself so hungry for His presence I did not want to leave. I just had to share. There is an invitation into the throne of grace. I had to humble myself to accept that invitation.
The invitation into the throne of grace does not stop at salvation. That invitation is open at all times. The author of the book of Hebrews says it like this “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need” (Hebrews 4:16, NIV).
The issue I had been I did not want to go to the throne of grace. I knew I needed that mercy and grace for the journey I am on, but vulnerability scares me. I was ashamed. I did not want to feel vulnerable, even though I knew I needed freedom in a deep part of my heart I thought I had hidden. The part that protected my shame from being evident to even me.
Yesterday I was praying for each of you, and so much more. I was listening to worship music and just crying out to God. The song “Holy Spirit” by Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes came on. I played it over and over and over again. I just could not get passed the line “Where my heart becomes free and my shame is undone.” I wanted my heart free and my shame undone. I became vulnerable.
I felt the urging of the Holy Spirit sweetly pulling me into the throne of grace. My confidence and boldness grew the more I pressed in. I just could not get enough of the presence of the Lord. I cried, I mean the ugly cry. I just wept and fell into the presence of the One who loves me most. It was terrifying, beautiful, freeing, and amazing all at once. I truly found freedom from the shame I had hidden from myself, but it was not hidden from the Holy Spirit.
My dear sisters, are you afraid of vulnerability? Are you hiding shame? My prayer is that you accept that invitation into the throne of grace. His grace and mercy are there waiting to envelop and overwhelm you, and give you freedom only He can.